Hehee i changed my mind again, I am defo leaving Islam!
The last few months have been hectic, my mother is in hospital suffering from a heart attack, I have prayed and prayed for my life to turn around, but it just keeps getting worse and wose, at one point it got so bad I tried killing myself, My dads brother became mentally ill when my Father passed (R.I.P)
I wouldn't know how to tell my mother i have left Islam, she knows I do not read the Quran or pray anymore, I have also stopped wearing a Hijab, although she encourages me to do so, I simply ignore her. I think she has the idea that I am leaving Islam so it won't be to shocking or hard on her when I do tell her, which hopefully will be when she has fully recovered, but I am not sure she will fully recover, the heart attack was a big one, and the doctors keep giving me bad news, my aunts and uncles have advised me to pray for her, I refuse to do so.
Is there any advice anyone can give to give me hope or make me feel better?
I am really sorry for what you have to deal with at such young age, but thats life.
As for sticking to religion or ditching or even switching to another one, let me add my 2 cents ,i think personal belief is like the power or energy supply you use to go through life , its supposed to help you deal and cope , adapt with life trauma or even happy events. choose whatever suits you and works for you , there are no concepts , atheists can be happy , muslims can be happy agonists can be happy ,we dont all have to be the same,
there is no rush in picking which side you want to be on , and none knows the absolute truth .
maybe there isnot a truth after all , who knows.
but what am certain of is that u are so young , and you need stability , something solid to hold on to and go from there , if its God then by all means stick to God and take it easy, the decision to leave islam and ditching God altogether is not an easy thing and seriously it needs all the attention you can give , to me its a moment in my life that i hold dear and will cherish forever, so just take your time, mourn your father , stay by your mom side , comfort her and keep in mind that you are not alone in this , we all have been through similar situations and we are still alive, life goes on .
Topic: I think it is time for me to leave Islam