The mere fact that you are attempting to explain your indecisiveness, is enough of a signal that says: "I know there is something wrong. I just can't (put my) "finger" (on) it.
In today's world that would indicate that you are indecisive because either you never learned to be decisive, or you are incapable of being decisive.
If it is the latter, then you could be said to have been born somewhat mentally "deficient"...
Completely unnecessary, and asking to have your balls ripped off. Simpleman, this particular sub-forum is for people who want to get things off their chests without being slagged off for it.
That is why the category heading is "Sanctuary". It means if you post something here in another person's thread you take extra care to make it constructive. Please consider.
I am having a difficult time trying to understand you.
It is called "venting". It relieves internal pressure.
OTOneH you say that you understand that there may implications of environment or nurture, and OTOtherH you provide examples of high level thinking...
I recommend the high level thinking.
What is it that you are looking for???
She is looking to simultaneously relieve internal pressure and sort her thoughts out in a format that allows her to sit back and peruse them at her leisure.
Burbles, FWIW my impression is that you're dealing with self-esteem issues, a hangover from all those years of being treated like shit. Basically I think you don't really trust yourself yet, so you get hung up on worrying that you'll make the wrong decision. Try making decisions just for the hell of it. Most of them aren't major anyway. Impulse buying rocks. Just walk into a joint, spot something that looks good and grab it.
Don't do it too often though. Too much impulse buying is a great way to go broke.