Yes, all of that kind of thing, I was even inclined that way for a while when I was going through that phase.
This is what I dont get. What on earth were you thinking
Islam presents itself in visceral, confrontational terms. All that is 'worst', or that it deems 'worst' in the 'other' (because Islam does operate on the basis of creating the 'other') is the hook upon which the clothes of Islam are hung, and are taken to represent all that is jahil and dirty that must be cleansed.
It creates a psychosis, anxiety, neurosis and self-loathing in the convert, which is a microcosm of Islam's perpetual anxiety and resentment because of the existence of worlds, cultures, religions, belief systems, and attitudes of humanity that are not Islamic and repudiate Islam's truth claims and totalising explanations. What this results in can be seen in these videos - seething hatred, bitterness, and psychosis.