What makes you interested in an ex Muslim site aaa? Why do you seek the company of those who've quit Islam rather than spend your time with fellow Muslims on Islamic sites?
i just like to know about different people and their experiences
I dont hate people
I just dislike those that try to convince me incessantly that God doesn't exist
it ok in fact ive understood that you don't want me here and I don't belong here... it is hard to accept for somebody that was born atheist that actually if you believe in God you won't be able to be with the whole of humanity because those that don't believe will try to prove you wrong or take the piss out of view for believing... as much as those who believe will try to convert the others with the sword or without. I guess im just upset cos it would be beautiful to have to separate worlds living in peace (imagine one world made of people that do not care about God and just enjoy their lives -and the other of obsessed people that do everything to please God alone). But i can't help it if I have this deep belief in God- i really tried to abort it many times.... I was raised and taught evolution and brought up on an exclusively scientific background.... and i do think it's absurd that I believe in God myself... trust me!!
... if my parents find out i converted to Islam they will kick me hard and take me to a mental health hospital.... but i can't help it if I believe.. I did try hard to go to church but they make up new rules all the time, they have a new saint every day, they claim Jesus is the son of God and I'm pretty sure many of you know about these things better than i do.... and i really don't believe in many Gods, and meditation like somebody said ok I can try that, but can i still do it like praying my salat?! I once thought maybe rastafarianism but i don't know they believe in some form of black supremacy and im kind of very white
, although i know quite a few rastafarians and they are indeed really nice people and funny as well and please im not implying that ppl that don't follow islam are drunken yobs of some sorts my dad is the greatest person in the world he's Professor of Physics at university, very good heart, generous, honest and with a lot of integrity, he doesn't even know what drugs are, a committed family man..... i just told you that i took a bit of drugs to be honest, i mean like the average teenager, maybe i didnt feel it was right inherently to myself, like with the drink or sex outside marriage, i always felt there was something wrong about it... this stuff is common kind of belongs to over 70% of my generation, im 25 (so having a drink and smoking a spliff is not such a big deal if you grew up in Europe recently omg)!! (this is my estimate) I know you wont understand,,, and i am so sorry cos when i read about those stories of oppression i do feel for you and I am shocked by the fact that im believing in something that many people wanna run away from while I embrace it like it all makes sense and i cannot believe myself when i think inside myself that i dont find those rules oppressive...
that's why i really would like to go to a proper muslim country to live, thats right, not a secularised one, a proper religion=state one (wish me luck or maybe you won't actually - i will have people doing the vodoo at me or somethin lol!..) no seriously.... cos i have this STRONG desire to experience that for myself, and i guess prove what i feel in myself wrong
I hope you read this with an open mind... i did not mean to fall in love with Islam.. it just happened.... please don't discard me as crazy, troll, or person with "issues" cos u are the one that are supposed to love humanity and really i got a lil bit upset by some of your comments
I genuinely want to understand ... and when I answered about apostasy... you will notice that I said "this is the answer as my brainwashed self" that is I gave the official answer that a Muslim will give you. You've called me names and i don't know what else really nasty things E.G. fat, attention-seeking, liking anal sex and so on... omg ( i mean i dont get offended so easily but some things were really nasty... lucky that you love the whole of humanity!!) so saying that I have a dislike for people that don't believe in God is really not that bad... I guess i was much more polite than at least one of you - and to be fair some of you have been actually at least trying to understand (reserving judgment!!) i mean some comments of tut king or whatever his name is inspired more hatred than me saying "i have a certain dislike for" come on!! how precious are you!!
I am just driven genuinely by a search for knowledge thats why I am here with an open mind
a lot of view have a lot of fair points but i won't reply today im a bit tired
fair points to all of view. thank you to the people that got into the debate seriously
im tired now so will switch off.. but maybe tomorrow i come back and check you all out...
take care now