I hope I didn't offend you, Kuro. If I did, I'm sorry. It's my lack in both medical terminology, and English, but what you've posted is what I meant about paranoid schizophrenia etc. I also hope you still feel you can come vent when you need it.
None of us are here to give you medical help, as you said, and "well-meant" advice when suffering from whatever mental or other problem is often just a nuisance.