you know its interesting to note the journey one goes through while losing faith, the doubting part has got to be very disorientating, I know for me personally I can see so many problems and logical arguments against islam but the muslim in me is still protesting against this and WANTING islam to be true.
Sometimes I wonder if it is actually a good thing to realise the truth when those around you are blinded by their belief.
Reading threads like this http://www.councilofexmuslims.com/index.php?topic=12753.0
I begin to wonder is this all worth it?
Do I have the strength to put on an elaborate act of being a muslim, do I have the strength to announce my disbelief, do I have enough evidence to truly disbeleive?
The social pressure to conform to religion is great, a lot of people can get hurt in this process, is it worth it? I wonder., but it is difficult to go against what you truly come to believe or disbelieve.
So like i keep saying there is a lot to consider and a lot of information to process which can not be done overnight.