Welcome to the forum, nousername. Please accept this rabbit!
First of all I'd echo the thoughts of others in the thread who suggested to continue university in the UK/west, and not in the middle east. While Dubai might not be the most repressive middle eastern country, that's not exactly saying much, and safety and freedom are among the most important aspects of living circumstances that young ex-muslims should be seeking out.
I'm deeply sorry to hear about your circumcision and the impact it's had on you both physically and emotionally.
I don't think I can emphasize my next advice enough, but as far as depression and suicidal thoughts are concerned I would strongly suggest seeking support, whether it be emotional through support groups/therapy, or medical via psychiatric consultation. I think the experience of many on here has led to the consensus that such concerns are not something to be messed around with or trivialized, but instead met with the considerable consideration it merits. I wish you all the success in the world in confronting this.
for the past 2 years or so, i've been doing a lot of research and reading English translation of the the quran trying my hardest to comprehend islam because i feel extremely guilty for questioning everything but i just can't find it in me to understand the religion. I was shocked at how misogynistic, intolerant and violent some of the teachings were.
Pretty much my apostasy story in a nutshell.
Anyway, I hope you'll find this forum useful and that you'll have a fun experience here!