I was also circumcised as a baby and had my clitoris removed. i had no idea until few years ago when my friend and i were showing each other our privates (don't ask why) and i had discovered that i didn't have it. I was young, i went home asking my mum what had happened to me and she told me with no regret. My elder sisters were stitched together and always go through so much pain when they're menstruating and two of my sisters have had several miscarriages so my mum always tells me to shut up and be grateful that i only had my clitoris removed and wasn't stitched. but i can't get over it, i feel disgusting and i don't think i could ever have the confidence to have sex with someone.
I'm so sorry. That was hard to read. Men that are circumcised face maybe a few problems, but I can never understand the pain that must of been to learn that. Above that all your mom coldly telling you to shut up and be grateful, is just profoundly malicious.
I never get teary eyed reading stories but that was personally one of the saddest to read.
I understand that dubai is not as bas other muslim countries but i really want to go to a university here because i want to live and do crazy stuff which i can't do in a muslim country. is this bad?
I would say Dubai is better then most muslim countries, but I'd say you probably have more personal freedom in places like Jordan and Lebanon (depending where you are).
Also I'd say this is quite normal especially since you live in a very strict household. I mean when I started flirting with idea that I wasn't muslim, I tried experimenting with different things just to see if Devine intervention would ever happen. As you can see it didn't. If there is a hell and god really cares for me. then he would stop me. God is either inert, apathetic, or is just evil.
Anyway welcome to the forum
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