My ultimate goal is to leave Islam however i think cause i rely on my parents too much financially i find it hard to come out due to the fear of being disowned and having no place to go. I thought to myself that once i get a job i can be able to move out and then come out which if in the situation of being disowned i can still have a roof over my head and get on with my life. Sadly that circumstance to be able to come out hasn't arrived yet. At times i wonder will that circumstance ever arrive as i''ve finished uni a couple of weeks ago and haven't got myself a job yet which makes me feel like another day in hiding if you will.
I'm twice your age and so I can give you the benefit of my experiences. I too went through difficult times when I was your age. It was tough in those days for me, while you were just a baby. Imagine that. I was jobless and many jobs in the area were very scarce. But, I had toughed it all out. At your age, I was chasing jobs but they were unavailable. I used to write CV and found no reponses. Today, it is a very different story. I no longer chase jobs. It is now the jobs chasing me. I don't look for jobs - rather, the jobs find me. How does that happen for me? OK, let me tell you how.
First, you need to
trust Fate always - and I'm
not a Muslim to tell you this.
Second, you need to understand why myriad things happen in your life.
Fate always has its REASONS for all the things happening in your life, whether they're good or bad. When Fate takes away some things from you, it is trying to encourage you to focus on other things, whatever they may be.
Fate can take away anything from you and yet gives you compensations.
Third, accept Fate always, not fight it. Also accept any compensation & rewards from Fate. After all, Fate is part of God. Fate is divine.
Forth, observe your life as a
CLASSROOM from God, not a test from God.
YOUR LIFE IS A CLASSROOM AND YOU'RE THERE TO RECEIVE LIFE LESSONS. At present, Fate has valid reasons for making you unemployed, however temporarily. Perhaps, Fate is telling you to make the best use of all your gifts you've been given in life. Most likely it is so. For example, you have the free time while you're jobless. Now you must make the use of the free time constructively and make the best of it too.
So now let Fate shape your destiny and all the things will fall into right places. Trust Fate always and let Fate decides what is for your own highest good.
Fifth, trust your hunches always. Listen to your gut feeling always, never ignore it. Your conscience is the
Voice of Reason and it speaks through your gut feeling. Get this, it is NOT Shaytan's whisper. It is your conscience, the
gift from God. Trust God's gifts always, never neglect them. If you're in doubt, why not ask God to guide your conscience. Trust God-guided conscience as God's Whispers.
I think I have given you enough above. Mind me asking, what courses did you study at university?
Topic: The struggles of an ex muslim in hiding