Hi Amina,
I understand your plight and have empathy for your situation. I am an ex-muslim who went back to my original faith, after studying the scriptures. I embraced Islam young and was influnenced by muslims at school at a young age, all the way to college. The only reason i embraced it, was i was weak in my original faith. Looking back now...I was told a pack of lies and falacies. I took the time to study scripture in the bible and all the biblical prophecies that are coming to, and in the process with all the current events in the world. I would urge you to study the the bible, and look into the teachings of Jesus, which the Quran lacks, and i beleive it lacks so much other evidences and has no real answers. There are many like me, who have left Islam, but accepted it under false pretencies.
God bless you and keep you.
thank you, we'll see where where my future takes me! i'm not a christian though, i honestly don't know what religion i am at the moment. and to whoever suggested studying abroad that sounds amazing but i don't think my parents would be good with that. thank you to everyone who's said something in this thread and to all the nice people i've met on here, i appreciate it a lot!