Luckily, I have a very supportive mother who is a doubting Muslim so I haven’t endured many hardships like many of you have. However, she comes from a religious family (from her father’s side) and they’re really irritating, although most of them are lovely people considering their background and the environment they’ve grown in. Of course, they’re really religious and very narrow-minded, and they shun away all those questions that can lead them to "straying away from the right path", and they replace them with, “Allah knows best". LOL, do you know what I mean?
Fortunately, I don’t have many of them around where I reside so I’m good.
My father is quite an oblivious Muslim, he prays I think when he wants to, he’s a very good man, and I love him to bits and pieces. He’s not religious, it’s more of a traditional/routine thing for him, but he just has this innate quality that makes him a good man, and he can’t harbor hatred like all most of the Muslim men I’ve seen. He ACTUALLY
wanted to have a daughter, and he’s glad he doesn’t have any sons (I’m the only child), so I consider myself VERY
lucky. I don’t have similar experiences to many other Muslims who’ve left Islam, because my mother has been really loving and would care less if I left it.
So, I like to read, listen to music, bake, and I like to be compassionate. I only believe in love right now, and finding proof about God is just an aimless endeavor, because I know I will always doubt organized religions. I do believe in some supernatural deity or whatever that’s created everything, but I’m not sure if he/she/it is evil or good. I sometimes think evil and good are human made concepts, but I’m never sure about anything, and I’m tired of searching for answers—because I may just be wasting my life.
Therefore, I’m just going to love humans to the best of my ability and bring forth some positive change into our world because it really
is f***ed up. If there is a God or if there isn’t doesn’t concern me as much. If we all just look at what is right now, and if we all try to put some effort into the betterment of the world then we might as well make heaven here on earth.
Yeah, I’m quite idealistic and I guess I’m a humanist.
I hope to know all of you here, and
for reading this. It was quite long I know.