Thanks Najia. I have decided to just ride along and wait and see. My hubby now knows how I feel (still he buys me islamic books
He is so gentle I know we won't fight over it however I care about how my refusal will affect him and how he, who cares so much about his image, will be ashamed and how everyone will insinuate to him "that's what you get for marrying a non-muslim". He is a squeaky-clean, devoted model muslim son...funny how the things that charmed me about him are the same things that worry me now. I somehow trust our love for each other will work some kind of magic, but I feel awful about disappointing him, because he really cannot understand my point of view, nothing malicious, just purely religiously naïve and innocent.