Hello ex-muslims. You can call me Zooby for now. As a new forum member I look forward to interacting and getting to know you guys. I've been lurking for a while and it feels good to know I'm not alone and there are people in similar situations to myself.
I'm currently 18 will be 19 very soon. Living in the UK, I was bought up in a Pakistani household. My religious belief peaked at around 14/15 years old, I'd be trying to pray five times a day, reading lots of qur'an, looking at talks from famous religious speakers, E.g - Zakir Naik, and all that typical Muslim stuff
. However after this period I admittedly got lazy, though I'd still defend Islam as the true faith instinctively. It was only till I decided to debate with an atheist that he managed to convey the point that I should try understand other peoples beliefs instead of asserting mine as the one true belief. Thus my mind was opened I decided to learn about things outside of my own comfort zone and eventually I fell in love with rational reasoning and science. I studied mathematics and loved the elegance of the equations, everything fitted together perfect and simply to convey complex meaning, then I wondered why islam wasn't so elegant, why islam couldn't explain the world as elegantly as a physics equation. I started to think it as a primitive faith. At first I felt empty but I soon came to terms with it. Now I'm just wondering when (If ever) To tell my family about this. It feels suffocating to be in a house where religion plays such a big part in everything. My older brother being a mean religious freak doesn't help either
It's so frustrating I want their (my family) minds to open as mine did but I just don't have the balls to say anything! I know I will have to one day though. Buut to take my mind off of all that I will kill some time on the forum and try to enjoy my still somewhat new found sense of freedom.
Thanks for reading all! : D
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