wow okay so i re read what i wrote last night and it makes me sound like a complete idiot... but i think its just because i realised everything I've believed in maybe isnt true. but im not a typical fanatical muslim im actually just a normal teenager
ive been brought up in a very liberal way by my mum (she is a convert herself), however it is my dad that is 'religious' in the sense that while he dosent pray/ give charity etc he feels he's muslim just because his daughters are coverd up stupid i know. but ishould emphasise earing the hijab was ultimately my choice and it felt good at the time
i guess im just looking for answers, i dont understand ive laways had some sort of belief that theres someone up there looking after people whether islam was the right way or any other religion, and i believd that as long as you were a good person i.e honest, charitable, compassionate you would go to heaven and be happy in this life whatever religion you are.
I used to believe that too as a Muslim. It was difficult for me to believe that my non-Muslim friends would be tortured for eternity simply because they didn't believe in Islam. But that's not Islam. In Islam, if you don't believe that there is only one God and that Mohammed was his messenger, you burn in hell. For eternity.
Do you acknowledge that the MAIN reason for you being a Muslim is that you're parents are Muslim? Do you accept that if you were born to Hindu parents, you'd believe in Hinduism; if you were born to Christian parents, you'd be a Christian; if you were born to Scientologist parents, you'd be a scientologist? Now ask yourself this: what sort of god would punish people for eternity simply because of the accident of their birth? DO you think it is fair? Do you think this is just, that a God would punish you for eternity simply because you were born into the "wrong" religion?
I think the reason i believed soo strongly in all of this is because im from east london and surrounded by muslims, the majority of my best friends are muslims with similar or more traditional views to mine.
It was hard for me to leave because of that. I'm from East London and the majority of my friends are Muslim too, my apostasy was very difficult because of that. I felt alone, isolated and that I didn't have anyone to talk to. Leaving Islam isn't easy, take your time and use your reason.
After last year though and my break up(which was related to religion/culture) i startted praying more and honestly seeing it as my fault and a warning for the future, also my beautiful mother who has always been very relaxed abourt religion with her kids was diagnosed with Parkinsons disease, which in my confused mind related it to the wrong i had done.
Sorry to hear that :(
Don't believe for a second that it was your fault. Even if it was, again, what sort of god would punish your mother for something that YOU did?
i then found myself praying more and more and constantly in tears. But the reason im here is becasue i just started university recently and have met some of the best people buut according to my religion they will go to hell eitheir for their sexuality or just because they drink and this realy got me thinking hw can that be right, theyre good people
im just looking for help with all of these quetions running through my mind.
Don't worry, they won't go to hell.......
....cos Islam is made up
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