Just to give you guys an idea of where I'm coming from during high school and in my early 20's I was in trouble alot. Looking back on things I was a total wankster but at the time I thought I was fucking tony montana.
we have very similar backgrounds it seems!
The stuff I did got me fast cash that allowed me to live the lifestyle I wanted. I drank alot, partied and recreationaly did drugs. However, doing drugs turned into a big problem and I eventually told myself I had to stop everything.
was the case for me as well mate!
This was probably the lowest I had been in my life, I was really depressed and when I went to the masjid I was 5"11 125lbs I must have looked like a holocaust survivor. I was at the point in my life where I was looking for something to believe in and was very open to whatever they would tell me.
im really recognising meself in all of this, well except for the holocaust part.
The people there were mostly Arab (alot of Saudis working in the country, libyans too) and Somalis.
a LOT of somalis in the mosque in my town actually. all of them salafi!
We kinda isolated ourselves from the world around us and followed sunnah and basically pretended we were living in 7th century Arabia. I didn't watch movies, TV, or music. I didn't even read the newspaper.
wow im amazed how far you took it! this salafi stuff is why i apostated. i remember taking all my family pictures down from the walls of my room. when my mom saw this, it made her cry.. i feel so fucking sad i made her cry like that just because my crazy ass was following some stupid religion.
i tried quitting music as well, but something in my heart told me that if there is a god this is not how he intended for us to live!
it was like i had been mentaly raped and spitted at by islam, and tears went down my cheeks and i decided i had have enough of this shit.
anyway im really happy to hear that you got out of it as well! thanks DigDug for your story.