When do you stop blaming God?
Reply #77 - April 16, 2014, 03:20 PM
I don’t really blame God at all. On a realistic level, I’m confident it is not a real thing. I simply cannot imagine a scenario in which all of the contradictions that make up what we call God could actually exist as an intity.
That said, there are times when I consider the god of the bible or the Qur’an and think, “what if this oaf were real? What if he really is as bipolar, tyrannical, narcissistic, and incompetent as the scriptures unwittingly make him out to be? What if he really does crave the worship and obedience of his “slaves” in order to build his self confidence and boost his ego? What if he really does plan on torturing 90% of humanity for not believing his flawed, contradictory, rambling “revelations?” What if he really is this crazed, eccentric, celestial Muammar Gaddafi with no real concern for the creatures he rules over? What if he really is this obsessed mad physicist who intricately created all of the seemingly pointless galaxies, stars, planets, asteroids, and comets just to destroy them all in a fit of rage on the Day of Judgment? What if he really is as homophobic as he is made out to be, destroying entire towns as part of a massive hate crime just because he found gay sex icky? What if he really does hate women as much as he seems to? What if he really does inflict kids with cancer and cause innocents to suffer, without regard for the real harm he is causing and unable to sympathize with the suffering of others, just because he wanted to “test what they might do?” What if he really is this hateful, homophobic, misogynistic, self centered prick with no regard or concern for anything apart from having his own ego stroked?
Then I think to myself, what possibly could have made him that way? What could his story possibly be? Was he always like that, or was he traumatized at some point in time in his poor little God life? Why the insistence on not having any family or partners? Why the constant need to be reminded of how great he is? Why the apparent low self esteem and the craving for love and recognition? Why so much hate? Why so much anger? Why the sadistic torture? What possibly could have gone wrong in God’s life that made him like that? What would it be like to get into the mind of God and have him talk through his issues?
Of course, as none of it is real it is a sort of mute exercise, but I think it would make an interesting plot for a story. Looking at the life of God before he was God and figuring out what the hell happened.