Wow, this is scary lol. The exact same thing happened to me when I was a Muslim. Wow. I jerked off, felt like shit, repented, saw a hot chick, did it again, repented. Made me crazy!
I didn't use to think it was haram to masturbate. I was worried I had "intentionally" broken my fast in Ramadan, and considered it to be kufr, like missing a prayer intentionally.
Interesting to look back at this crazy stuff, aye?
Girl to right omg. Dude take me with you.
I was thinking the same. She looks YUM