Hi Jacktheexmuslim,
I am sorry if I am a bit blunt here. I see quite a bit of negativity here that you need to turn around. Firstly, just forget about what others say or think about you or they would think or say about you when you interacted with them or said something to them. If this is something that could be limiting your confidence, just start trying to ignore that thought proactively, like telling yourselves in your head. A significant percentage of young people can have social awkwardness and they learn and develop skills a little later. It depends on the environment one is brought up in, the opportunities one had, neighbourhood, schooling, family, etc all can affect but there can be some element of anxiety as a personality trait that one might as well have. I was a teenager and am a father of two as well. I can assure you that it will all get better but you have to have a positive attitude and build more confidence about you. There are help group websites where people with similar issues help each other as there are several things which work for them and they share it. It could be some simple dietary or herbal stuff or relaxation therapies or depending on what is availabke in the region that you live in, some additional one to one counselling/CBT etc.
I have been completely cornered twice in my life, once around your age and once in my late forties, just recently. I went through a negative period for some time on bith occasions but then somehow went into what I call 'survival mode' where you see a different more positive, more hard working, more selfish ( if I am happy, financially string and healthy, I will be of some use for others hence selfishness is OK), and you will see that you will surprise yourself. Each one of us has enormous potential beyond what we achieve, it is only that we lack self belief.
So I would suggest, set a date and time that is NOW, that I did on both occasions and switch on your survival mode. There is one life and this is your life. And only you can turn it around. Be as positive in your thoughts and attitude. Forget about what others say or would say. Find or create opportunities, however small, and see what you can do about helping social awkwardness, though I believe it would fade away if you changed to a more positive thinking. I tell my kids as well that you do not need many friends, just one good friend is better than many friends who are not going to be there for you. One caring sibling, one caring parent or one caring person is enough in any tough time in one's life. Mostly, one has to fight his or her fights himself and we all eventually fight them. The things one needs are the positive attitude and self belief.
Good luck and all the best in all areas of your life.
Great advice. Thanks for posting.
Topic: I am an ex muslim and I badly need help to survive!