Turkish/Dutch Ex-Muslim

OP - October 06, 2014, 12:36 PM

Hello people of this forum,

Yesterday night I was fairly bored so I looked for some fun Forums to join and have nice conversations on. After some googling i stumbled upon this forum and was quite impressed that there is actually a forum like this out here.

Anyways I'm a Turkish guy that was born and raised in the Netherlands, my parents are obviously Muslim and raised me in quite a religious fashion. When I was younger I always attended the mosque on Fridays and went to Arabic class, my grandfather would also come over regularly to make me read the Qur'an. When I was 15 years old I started doubting that a deity existed and asked myself a lot of questions inside of my head, after a solid year I decided I was no longer a Muslim or a Theist. At this moment my parents did obviously not know of my decision so I pretended to be a Muslim I went to the friday prayers but I would only stay for the first prayer and then leave. I would often even say I don't feel well to my mom so I didn't have to go to Friday prayers. During Ramadan I would always have some food laying around my room which I would eat and drink water secretly.

When I was 18 we went on a trip to Turkey with my family. One night I had quite a big fight with my cousin (He is kind of the picky asshole that you do not want to meet). I was filled with anger and rage so I immediately went to our apartment where I got into my room. When I get truly outraged I had to release my anger and that usually happens through crying(yeah I know it's a sissy way but whatever). Then my mom came in and because of my anger I told my mother to get my dad over and I had something to tell. They came in and I told them I am not a Muslim, they didn't believe it at first and were like "No, you're a Muslim." However there were some visitors so they decided not to speak about it that evening.

The next day we had a long and emotional talk about this and they came to the conclusion that I did mean what I said. However they did not accept the way of my thinking but I'm their son and no matter what the conditions are they will always love me. After this me and my dad got really cold towards each other but my relationship with my mom is fairly alright.

Thanks if you read all this and let me know how you became an Ex-muslim or other stories that you would like to share. If you have any questions just post them here.

I already want to take a nap tomorrow.