Can I get a little bit of detail on your backgrounds? Is she from a Muslim background, like you? She may be feeling a sense of guilt for letting it go this far. Are you both college-aged? Do you live in the same country, at least? How much do you know about her real life?
From what you're saying, you say you had the relationship talk at 3 months, had an irreconcilable fight at 5 months, and here you are, 8 months and unsure where it's going. In my experience, online relationships tend to move very quickly, but only if both parties are equally interested. I can understand the talking for hours bit--I've been there.
Here is my honest opinion. She might not see you as anything more than a friend, or she might be scared to take the steps necessary to make this online friendship an online relationship. In any case, waiting for a month before you confront her about it is a terrible idea. You need to find some balls and be absolutely honest with her about your feelings. Compose her an email or something if you can't get immediate hold of her. You obviously love her. You need to be strong enough to consider that she might not love you back, but it's no use pussyfooting it and tactically ignoring each other until something happens.
Relationships are hard. Long distance relationships can be even fucking harder. But if you want something, only you can make it happen.
Thing is that I do not want an online relationship. No point. I want to stay friends and we will only consider a relationship if we meet.
She is from Finland. She is non-religious haha. Had a bit of an influence. We are college aged yet she couldn't get into uni although she is smart. I felt sad for her. :(
The thing is that after I made the stupid comment. She started to talk to me herself. Yet she was a bit cold. At first she blamed it on a lack of time. And she kept apologising a few times for being cold. I forgave her. During the World Cup she apologised and started being cheeky with me again like she used to be. It lasted for a few days. She wanted me to videochat her. Then when I asked for a videochat a few weeks later she said she doesn't like it. I got a bit offended. Since then it has been rough. Like once she was like "I'll try to behave and we can fix this" then I said something really stupid "I wonder if waiting and having some time off you would make things better". Since then she is ignoring everything I send to her except pics of roses and stuff ahaha.
I do not know why she does that. After the relationship talk I agreed to just focus on a friendship. When she said why she wanted to be friends she said "it wasn't an option because of the distance" and "I am sooo far away it would never work", I did not get the "brother speech" though lol. After I agreed to a friendship she went cold like this again. I ignored her for a week and she started talking again. Those few days of April were fun because we talked so freely and openly. Then I made my stupid comment. A few weeks ago she said "Things haven't been the same since the comment".
She is a very nice and intelligent girl and ahh it is a weird situation. I do not know what to do. Maybe wait a week instead of a month? Even if I were to end it I would still do it on good terms and after a long talk.
I wish if we met in real life. Would have been much easier. She did call me "cute" and "MrCruelButVeryHandsome" so I guess she likes the shallow aspects of me as well as my personality.
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