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OP - April 16, 2014, 04:36 AM

No one really knows me on this forum but I suppose I have a intro long time ago since last year almost now. A lot has happened since last year but I guess past is the past. I don't know how many of you attended madarasses in Pakistan but theyre fucking terrible. I attended till I was 7. I've never told anyone but not just madrasses but school in general back home was too much abuse for me. That shit I got unnecessarily beat for no fucking reason and I quite honestly have so much fucking anger built inside me. First time I got high, some people told me I got some sort of dark shit inside me and I need help (funny some muzzie told me that lol). Now I get drunk and to be honest I'm fucking angry when I do. Im funny drunk but to be honest theres a point, where I'll fuck anything up cuz I'm looking for a reason. I feel angry right now cuz Im pretty drunk and its not the booze that makes me angry. Im angry all the time, angry drunk I just don't give a fuck about consequences. I just want to be happy and stay that way cuz Im so much more productive that way. It sucks to be born in this shit ass family where I gotta act like a Muslim well they think I'm a kaffir but they havent heard that outta my mouth so we're all good. I'm writing how I was raised so I might post that soon if I feel like anyone would care to read it at all. Im not sure if this was the right place to put it in. Oh well. I don't if any of you feel this way.
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Reply #1 - April 16, 2014, 04:43 AM

I've read some of your posts, put one of them in Greatest Hits. Good to see you back.

`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
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Reply #2 - April 16, 2014, 05:07 AM

Thanks man I didn't know ppl thought it was good. I feel like if I told anyone how I felt they'd think I'm fucking psycho but I'm not. :\
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Reply #3 - April 16, 2014, 05:35 AM

Nah mate, it's understandable. Just don't let it control you or it'll ruin your life. Shitty but true.

`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
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Reply #4 - April 17, 2014, 07:58 PM

Yeh ive been trying to manage that. Its been working well so far. I write a lot for my student newspaper a lot, so it keeps me busy. Gunna write my LSAT this summer, hopefully that'll be my way out to make my own life. Theres gotta be greet and meets in my city but I don't suppose many ex muslims here.
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Reply #5 - April 17, 2014, 08:48 PM

Quote from: Ricky on April 16, 2014, 05:07 AM
Thanks man I didn't know ppl thought it was good. I feel like if I told anyone how I felt they'd think I'm fucking psycho but I'm not. :\

This post of yours was incredible.
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Reply #6 - April 17, 2014, 09:43 PM

That's the one I added to Greatest Hits.

`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
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