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DARKEYED9
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« Reply #25 on: July 23, 2010, 02:12 PM » |
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Abood, both of my parents are psychologically messed up in different ways. I discovered this when I was in high school. I have talked about her having these panic attacks but she just gets upset and thinks I'm denying her love or whatever. And then she cries a whole lot. It's just so annoying.
My father's doctor told him to see a psychologist/psychiatrist and he said OK but never followed through. Same with my mother. I have a younger sister who also seen a psychologist and it is MY PARENTS fault. They blame her for being incapable to communicate at times at school. My sister has become what my mother wanted her and for myself and my other sibling to be. Silent, at home or at school, and studying. No friends. No life. And I can't even speak to my sister because she thinks I am the devil or something. She is not allowed to speak to me since I'm "bad."
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DARKEYED9
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« Reply #26 on: July 23, 2010, 02:14 PM » |
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I remember not speaking at all in school when I was younger. And they blamed me. I didn't speak to anyone.
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kb999
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« Reply #27 on: July 23, 2010, 02:17 PM » |
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Sorry if it seems like I'm intruding but, when did you start talking in school? Was it difficult to do that?
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DARKEYED9
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« Reply #28 on: July 23, 2010, 02:21 PM » |
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Second grade or so
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Abood
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« Reply #29 on: July 23, 2010, 02:21 PM » |
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Have you thought of moving out?
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Abood
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« Reply #30 on: July 23, 2010, 02:22 PM » |
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Second grade or so
I had the exact same problem and started speaking in second grade as well. |
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DARKEYED9
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« Reply #31 on: July 23, 2010, 02:56 PM » |
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Abood :( I'll be moving out in a month and hopefully I won't return unless it's for a visit. But this month is taking too long!
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Abood
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« Reply #32 on: July 23, 2010, 02:58 PM » |
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Masturbate. Everyday. Three times a day. That's what I do when I'm bored. I do it until my dick starts hurting.  |
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humblesoul
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« Reply #33 on: July 23, 2010, 03:46 PM » |
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I feel your pain Darkeyed....as an ex-muslim living in the closet in religion infested Nigeria....there are days i totally hate my life and situation of living a lie...but like some people here have already mentioned your security is far more important, and look on the bright side one month is not too far away so please hang in there.....   |
"There aint no devil, it's just God when he's drunk"- Tom Waits
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DARKEYED9
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« Reply #34 on: July 23, 2010, 04:13 PM » |
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Thanks everyone. I feel like I only start posts when I have something to complain about. I need to stop that! |
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ateapotist
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« Reply #35 on: July 23, 2010, 04:27 PM » |
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Don't worry, DarkEyed9.  That's one of the purposes of this forum -- to give young apostates a place to vent their frustrations, and seek advice; or just read about how other people are coping. Many of us are a bit fucked-up because of how we were brought up. I, personally, have learnt to live with it, and in fact, I am enjoying teaching myself the skills that I lack. Just remember, success breeds confidence -- which in turn breeds more success.  |
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Cheetah
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« Reply #36 on: July 23, 2010, 04:33 PM » |
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Thanks everyone. I feel like I only start posts when I have something to complain about. I need to stop that! No, you don't. Feel free to vent here anytime you need, its part of our raison d'etre. |
I thought about when natural disasters and horrible attacks happen. And how quiet it gets. That quiet, is the absence of God. - BlackDog.  |
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hannah
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« Reply #37 on: July 23, 2010, 04:34 PM » |
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you're only 18 o.o; wow well I'm only 19 anyway
D: I know how you feel about the whole parents not letting you out
my parents are kind of like that
*__* I hope things get better for you soon~
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XxThaminaxX
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« Reply #38 on: July 23, 2010, 04:38 PM » |
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My dads at work most of the time and I tell my mum I'm going to my cousin sisters flat even if I'm not lol so its kinda ok for me.
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Jinn and Tonic
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« Reply #39 on: July 23, 2010, 04:59 PM » |
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Darkeyed.... would you be willing to learn a new craft? Cities and towns usually have tons of fun things you can do that are halal, that wont raise any suspcions. I taught myself how to do beadwork, cross stitching, plymer clay art, needlepoint, wood working, making miniatures, and making jewelry ALL from www.about.comThey offer caligraphy, and every form of art you can imagine! Anything and everything you EVER wanted to know about, even japanese cooking lol is there! type anything in the search box and voila! It shows you step by step how to do it! Heres the page where i just typed in "needlework" but you can choose whatever you want. I found it most theraputic, especially being alone. Helped take my mind off of so much crap ive been through, and instead able to make something beuatiful with that funky energy http://search.about.com/fullsearch.htm?terms=needlework&SUName=search |
"God so loved the world that he made
up his mind to damn a large majority
of the human race."
Robert Green Ingersoll
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TheLastKnight
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« Reply #40 on: July 23, 2010, 10:11 PM » |
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If you're cooped up I suggest learning an instrument. Buy an electric piano and learn how to play it! If you're allowed that is.  |
What Muslims really believe:
There is no God but Mohammed, and Allah is his messenger.
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XxThaminaxX
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« Reply #41 on: July 24, 2010, 09:31 AM » |
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Aren't all musical instruments except for the drum/duff supposed to be haram?
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Abood
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« Reply #42 on: July 24, 2010, 10:37 AM » |
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Views about music differ greatly between schools of thought.
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Naija Infidel
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« Reply #43 on: July 24, 2010, 11:12 AM » |
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most of us here are all in the same situation,especially living under lie, it's difficult that you can't have a decent conversation with a muslim friend without bringing the topic of religion into it. I just came home from college for weekend yesterday , and now am regretting for coming home. My Father built a mosque in our compound even though there is another one two blocks away from our home. so which means i have to pray 5 times there or else i will be in trouble with my father especially Subh prayer(it drives me crazy  anytime he comes to my room and wake me up) and not only that, I have attend every sermon that is taking place in our mosque. anytime we have a big quarrel with my dad is because i missed prayer seriously this has been going on since when i was 7 and he never gets tired of nagging anytime i missed one.i mean doesn't he ever think like "okay i have had enough of shouting at this boy for missing sallah" and then cut me some slack. thank god i am going to back to school tommorow. Darkeyed 9 stay strong and keep on hanging it's matter of time by the way it's ok to vent, there is nothing to be ashamed of |
It's not that we don't like muslims since our parents,siblings,relative and friends are muslims, it's them that have problem with us for chosing our own personal belief
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Jinn and Tonic
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« Reply #44 on: July 24, 2010, 04:50 PM » |
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off topic.. naija.. i heard an egyptian lady say there were over 5,000 mosques in Cairo alone!  darkeyed. i hope you can find something to distract you, that you can find interest in, that wont be objectionable by your parents |
"God so loved the world that he made
up his mind to damn a large majority
of the human race."
Robert Green Ingersoll
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ateapotist
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« Reply #45 on: July 24, 2010, 05:15 PM » |
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@Naija Infidel: That sucks man. Sounds like your dad is a bit like mine. I left Islam a few years after graduating from university so my problems were slightly different to yours, and I had a bit more power to walk away from all the hell (which I did in the end). Hang in there, bro. I pretended to pray for many months. |
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« Reply #46 on: July 24, 2010, 07:48 PM » |
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Aren't all musical instruments except for the drum/duff supposed to be haram?
 Removes you away from your dean, and fear of the after-life. |
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XxThaminaxX
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« Reply #47 on: July 24, 2010, 07:52 PM » |
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Most muslims I know listen to music  |
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IsLame
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« Reply #48 on: July 24, 2010, 08:04 PM » |
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Most muslims I know listen to music What most Muslims do & say is not necessarily representative of Islam (although it may be a sugar coated by-product). What the books say & what the prophet said, that is the only real way of getting closer to the truth. Saudi Arabia is probably the closest example. |
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XxThaminaxX
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« Reply #49 on: July 24, 2010, 08:09 PM » |
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But even their I'm sure they buy CDs and DVDs. I think Harry Potter was banned there lol. Do you regard the current king as a reformer?
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